Good-Bye Grandma and Grandpa

[Sparrk]

Well my grandfather died in '88, and my grandmother was moved into a Nursing home earlier this year because she has dementia. My family has just closed the sale of the house.

This house is where my mother was born, and the house I have known all my life as well.

My grandparents are the ones who taught me everything I know about horses since my mom ditched horses for my dad ( what a bad decision on her part). So this place is where I spent most of my childhood riding and helping with the horses. I rode my first horse there, and still can close my eyes and vision everything - the barn, the yard, the house, perfectly.

This year my family has been slowly cleaning out her house and today I went to get the mats out of the old barn to use in my barn.

First, I walked around the yard, then the old buildings, garage, hay barn, main barn and the house. It was so sad seeing everything so empty and lifeless - and realizing this part of my life has come to an end.

I opened her cupboard where the tea pot and tea cups were kept and discovered they were still there. I cried. I asked my mom, if I could have them because I remember "tea time" so well and it was so nostalgic, and she told me I could take them.

The door knocker on the back door has my grandparents last name engraved in it and I was allowed to have that too.

I walked to my truck with tears in my eyes and before I got into my truck I turned around and took one last look and said "Good'Bye Grandma and Grandpa, I love you".

It almost sound stupid, but it was like today was the day everything hit me emotionally. I miss my grandparents more than anything right now, and wish I just had one more day with them.

Ah geez, I'm crying, to be continued.

[Gypsy Rose]

I'm sorry- that has to be really hard. I remember when my grandma decided she could no longer live alone and went to move in with my aunt. It was sad to realize how many memories my grandma would be leaving behind, not to mention the ones I had, lol.

[Sundays Man]

I'm very sorry Sparrk. It's hard to see things in our life change and especially hard to loose loved ones. Remember what you said when dealing with all of your family. You may wish you had just one more minute with them also one day. So make everyday a great day with them. It takes time, but it will get better. The good thing about the old home place is that it will live forever in your mind and heart. I can still see my old childhood place in my mind in minute detail.

[Remali]

I know how hard it is to lose loved ones, and family homes. My grandparents and parents are all passed on now, and last year when our family home was sold it just ripped my heart out. Remember the happy times and cherish the tea pot and tea cups, and anything else you have from them. When I get sad, I always tell myself "my mother would want me to be happy, not sad...", and I know your grandparents would want you to be happy too. It's hard tho, I know what you mean.....

[Piper522]

I thought your story was very touching. Although the day was sad for you, how amazing was it that they gave you so much...and I a sure everytime you get on a horse, it will bring back memories.

Tears for ones that we have lost just make us realize we have a heart and we can love! Big hugs to you!!

[gaited07]

Spark,
Sorry to hear about your Grandparents house. It's sad sometimes knowing that that chapter is closed, however, your loving memories live forever.

[ownedby7horses]

Sparrk, Im sorry to hear about that. It's hard to deal with that. (((hugs)))

[rums_mom]

You put some tears in my eyes. Keep this post as a reminder. In years gone by, as the pain subsides, you will find joy in your words. Remember them each time you walk in the door that has the door knocker and drink tea from the tea cups. That is the legacy they passed on to you and you will pass it on to your descendents. I know it may be bittersweet but hopefully whomever lives in their house, keeps horses in the barn will love and cherish each day they have there. I am sure they will let you go back and visit. The first time I met the descendent of our house, I was happy to let her in and show her around. I loved hearing her stories of being there, growing up with at her grandparents house and keeping her horses there... she eventually moved back to the property next door and is the best neighbor anyone can have.............

[qh trail rider]

I know that this part of life is difficult, but know that those special memories will always live in your heart and always be a part of who you are.

[vicklynn]

Aww Sparkk((HUGS)). I know that had to of been difficult. Keep them in your heart, they will never be gone from there.