Mandy
10-29-2008, 12:03 PM
Hey everyone, Caitlin sent me an email letting me know about this forum, so here I am. I hope everyone is well and look forward to catching up with you all. Let's see what's new with me...
I just found a job last week, it's taken since June for me to find any work at all. I am not sure if this position is permanent or not, he was supposed to tell me yesterday, but didn't mention it, and I am afraid to mention it because if it's not permanent ... well, I won't even start to think that right now. So I am working part time as a legal secretary part time. I hope that I'll be able to find another part time job so I can get my bills paid, but for now this one pays my bills which is most important.
My father decided to stop paying my rent monthly starting in January, so needless to say I will be in big trouble without steady work. The lawyer I am working for is feeling the effects of the economy as well, so all I can do with the money I get is save, save and stay hopeful. I am blessed that my mother is my landlord, because although she is giving me a significantly reduced rent rate, I feel that if I miss a few months of rent she won't evict me -- even though she may.
Right now I have no computer, I am going to take one of my mom's laptops so I can get on the internet at home...
My doctor said that he hates to see me the way I am right now, my injury from May with Samson is still very painful, so they are helping me with some unconventional treatment for the pain as well as my depression. It's helped my insomnia and what not as well, and helped me from having the vivid and frightening nightmares I was experiencing as well as the daily fear and anxiety. So for that, I am very thankful.
My doctor also said that he can put me on disability if I am unable to find a job, however since I was on unemployment first, the amount of money that I will get (and given I am very young and haven't paid into it much) wouldn't be enough for me to pay all my bills, although it is comforting to know that I would be able to have some money coming in no matter what happens.
Since my accident with Samson, I haven't been able to ride again, other than once. When I did it was painful and I was too anxious. I am hoping that once the economy gets back to normal and I can afford it to take lessons and start from the beginning. I miss Samson every day and can't even go back to the barn where I kept him to see my best friends horse - I just can't go. I do not know what happened to him in the end, and am continuing to see horror stories come from the area where I sold him, but I can only hope that he found a home with someone who has the skill and patience to bring him to where he should have been with me. Honestly, I just try not to think about it.
I am sorry that this is so long, I am going to go read and see what everyone has been up to. I'm glad that I found you guys again, the support and love that I received from the people of this forum has been a god send for me...
I just found a job last week, it's taken since June for me to find any work at all. I am not sure if this position is permanent or not, he was supposed to tell me yesterday, but didn't mention it, and I am afraid to mention it because if it's not permanent ... well, I won't even start to think that right now. So I am working part time as a legal secretary part time. I hope that I'll be able to find another part time job so I can get my bills paid, but for now this one pays my bills which is most important.
My father decided to stop paying my rent monthly starting in January, so needless to say I will be in big trouble without steady work. The lawyer I am working for is feeling the effects of the economy as well, so all I can do with the money I get is save, save and stay hopeful. I am blessed that my mother is my landlord, because although she is giving me a significantly reduced rent rate, I feel that if I miss a few months of rent she won't evict me -- even though she may.
Right now I have no computer, I am going to take one of my mom's laptops so I can get on the internet at home...
My doctor said that he hates to see me the way I am right now, my injury from May with Samson is still very painful, so they are helping me with some unconventional treatment for the pain as well as my depression. It's helped my insomnia and what not as well, and helped me from having the vivid and frightening nightmares I was experiencing as well as the daily fear and anxiety. So for that, I am very thankful.
My doctor also said that he can put me on disability if I am unable to find a job, however since I was on unemployment first, the amount of money that I will get (and given I am very young and haven't paid into it much) wouldn't be enough for me to pay all my bills, although it is comforting to know that I would be able to have some money coming in no matter what happens.
Since my accident with Samson, I haven't been able to ride again, other than once. When I did it was painful and I was too anxious. I am hoping that once the economy gets back to normal and I can afford it to take lessons and start from the beginning. I miss Samson every day and can't even go back to the barn where I kept him to see my best friends horse - I just can't go. I do not know what happened to him in the end, and am continuing to see horror stories come from the area where I sold him, but I can only hope that he found a home with someone who has the skill and patience to bring him to where he should have been with me. Honestly, I just try not to think about it.
I am sorry that this is so long, I am going to go read and see what everyone has been up to. I'm glad that I found you guys again, the support and love that I received from the people of this forum has been a god send for me...