PatriotsDreamer
11-17-2008, 12:33 PM
Well i went to go get pins out of my hand today... no big deal right? thats what i thought but i was WRONG. i told them to just rip them out rather than to do the local of litocane because it was so painful the last time and hurt worse than breaking it. They got the first two out after lightly cutting the surface of the skin.(i couldnt feel anything as i had lost feeling in that side of my hand anyway). after they pulled the first two out, the feeling suddenly just came back out of no where. They were having trouble locating the third one, had to do alot of digging/cutting/ pulling and couldnt find it.They ended up giving me a local so they could try and find that third pin. the local DIDNT even work and they kept giving me just a little more but i could still feel everything and they was still unsuccessful after about 1:15min of trying to find it manually, so he wrote me a prescription and sent me on my way for an x ray to locate it. I lossed ALOT of blood. it was all over the table, cloths, his hands, some on the ground. Well as he was writing my prescription my eyes went funky. i thought it was just from going from a really bright room to a less bright one. The receptionist was talking to me after the prescription( cant remember what she said). My eyes went fuzzy like a tv screen, i remember spreading my legs apart to "stablize" my balance better, and holding on the counter while she was still talking.... Then my knees buckled, i just fell and went totally limp. i hit the wall then slid down it to the ground. couldnt see anything, couldnt move, couldnt talk, but i COULD hear and feel everything. The receptionist started frantically yelling for the doctor, and next thing i know i had people surrounding me, i could hear voices, and feel all the vibrations on the ground from their running footsteps. I heard" is she alive?"and I felt ice cold fingers on my neck. The fingers kept moving" I cant feel a pulse i cant feel a pulse get a stephascope there is no pulse"then I had atleast 5 people ahold of me. One had ahold of my head. 2 had ahold of my legs, and two had ahold of my shirts, and they lifted me to lay me flat. " talk to me ashley talke to me say something", as a smooth hand rubbed my face and frantically tapped. i tried but could say nothing. They ended up doing CPR, and well... here i am now. My heart DID completely stop... its weird because i could still hear and feel everything. I can officially say that i have died and came back to life( which that is not necc. a good thing either). Anyway i went to the hospital after that... am better from that but still lightheaded/shaky/dizzy, and i got the x ray.
NOW come to find out i have to get not one but TWO more surgeries. The one i wasnt going to get before( to free up tendons from scar tissue) but im getting it now because not only that but my bones are not properly aligned. Part of the cartililage end ( shouldve been facing up in the joint is turned a 90 degree angle inward) and just showed up in these x rays. the bone fused on one side but not in the inside due to the cartliage. so i still have the last pin in my hand for now, am getting a MRI this week and then the surgeries. They have to rebreak my hand , rotate the bone, do bone graphs, and i get to wear pins AGAIN. I am uber bummed.
NOW come to find out i have to get not one but TWO more surgeries. The one i wasnt going to get before( to free up tendons from scar tissue) but im getting it now because not only that but my bones are not properly aligned. Part of the cartililage end ( shouldve been facing up in the joint is turned a 90 degree angle inward) and just showed up in these x rays. the bone fused on one side but not in the inside due to the cartliage. so i still have the last pin in my hand for now, am getting a MRI this week and then the surgeries. They have to rebreak my hand , rotate the bone, do bone graphs, and i get to wear pins AGAIN. I am uber bummed.